Look what I got!!

Look what Gina made me!! It’s so cool. It’s like the way you see film stars names, very showbiz. I love it so much. Thankyou Gina. 

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Been chatting with mummy, she has been really helpful with this blog. I’m not very clued up with adding photos or links etc, but I am learning. It’s amazing how simple it becomes when someone shows you but doesn’t treat you like an idiot. I think we have all been there. You are stuck, so you phone the helpline or see an in-store IT helpdesk bod. There is always one, who to make themselves feel superior, will talk techno babble with the smuggness of a cat who not only got the cream but has also inherited a dairy!! Don’t you just love them!!

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I will be posting some new photos of myself soon so beware. Batten down the hatches and retreat to the shelters, gas masks at the ready! Gas masks? Why did I put that? Why am I typing – why did I put that? Why am I typing – why am I typing did I put that? Why………….. Time to go!!! Before I turn into a joke from a cheap xmas cracker.

Stay with me folks, it can only get better (fingers crossed)

Sissy history

I love being mummy’s sissy, I love that she like’s me because I am a sissy not despite it. I also know that she wants to help me get the most out of my sissiness, be the little girl inside and I cherish her for it. I sent her a picture of a very special sissy, a sissy I would love to look like - Elli. This darling sissy is without doubt one of the most famous sissies in the world and ’she’ is so pretty. She is an inspiration.

Mummy said that ’she’ was a lucky sissy and I agreed. So lucky to be living the sissy dream, so lucky to be so pretty. And we are so lucky ’she’ shares so much of her life with all the other little sissies in this big old world. Thankyou Elli.

Mummy also said how wonderful it would be to live like that and then added – wouldnt I love to live like that all the time. Yes mummy, I think I would.

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I’d like to just tell you all a little bit of my sissy history. This is the moment I found out I was a transvestite. I was around 13 and although I had been dressing since I was much younger I had no idea why I wanted to wear girls clothes, or that there were many many other ‘guys’ who felt the same. I had had sissy feelings from as far back as I can remember. I dreamt I was at a salon having my hair done, I wanted to wear what my sister wore, all the usual feelings a sissy gets from a young age. But that day I found that word, well it changed me.

I had a hamster at the time and I was cleaning it’s cage. As I cleaned I glanced at the paper I had laid down to catch any mess and there in front of me was an article about a guy who liked to dress as a woman – a transvestite. I read it over and over. He liked doing what I liked doing, I wasn’t the only one! I saved the article and for the next few years I read it everyday. I cant remember the details of the piece but just to know what I was and that I wasn’t alone comforted me.

Back then, I wanted to be a girl my own age but as I grew up I wanted to be a woman. I wanted to dress and live like a woman. In my early 20’s I found myself more attracted to frillier things, little girl things. I found the word sissy and it fitted, even more so than transvestite/tranny/cross-dresser. That’s what I was, a sissy and whilst the whole dressing as a woman still appealed, my true heart was a little girl. Over the next decade these feelings intensified to the point where I am now. Almost every waking hour dreaming of little girl things, aching to be dressed, longing for that extra hour in my pretty dresses. I know this journey is far from over and I have no idea where I will end up. I have an inkling I will spend more and more time dressed and I am ok with that. I can often feel my manhood ebing away, like a dripping tap slowly releasing it’s load. I can also see my path to little girlhood, stretching out before me. I don’t know how many wrong turns I will make along the way, but deep down I guess I am already there, in my heart.

It’s hard being a sissy, when you know you are a sissy, it’s even harder being a sissy when you don’t know you are one! But I am so happy I am a sissy.

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I wore panties again to work today, a cute little pair. They fitted so well. I guess I’m lucky I am a sissy, because any guy who could fit panties like the ones I wore would get a few titters from the ladies in the bedroom department!!!

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I am now on Yahoo 360 where I hope to meet loads of sissies. It would be nice to have some sissy friends. I’m making some on Sissy Kiss, one even sent me some kisses!! Not in the sexual way, but in the way little girls send kisses. It was so sweet. I have been interacting with some lovely sissies and can safely say Sissy Kiss is my second home.

Thankyou as always to everyone who has been so kind to me, love you all. x x x

Sissy School

This picture invokes so many emotions. I have always had this fantasy that when I was younger I was recognized as a sissy and sent to sissy school. Here we would learn how to be little girls and forget our boyish ways. I love the idea of going to a school that is just for sissies, or going to a girls school that allowed sissies to go. I also love the idea of there being a school for older sissies like me, maybe an after work school, where we can go and learn the things we were never taught as kids.

 

 I can imagine being say 10 years old and being enrolled at sissy school. Learning how to be a little girl, doing each others hair and make-up, sharing dollies and being girls. Bliss. Never having to grow up, always being little girls.

I know now that I’m ready to interact with other sissies, go to sissy parties and share with people my thoughts only other sissies could ever fully understand.

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Been chatting to Mummy Honey and Gina this week, which is always a pleasure. Baby Danielle’s been having trouble finding a daddy to look after her. The ones she does find always seem to let her down and I really feel for her.

Had a lovely email from Rachy which was wonderful and Lola has been in touch too. I’m so lucky to meet these amazing people.

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Sissy Kiss is going well too, and there have been loads of new members. It’s really heart warming to know there are so many sissies out there.

We rule!!!

Tired…. but

This is what other sissies see when they see a post by me on Sissy Kiss. It is my sissy avatar and I love it. It really shows how I feel inside. It’s how I imagine my pretend sissy world would be. Bright colors, innocence and little girl fun. A glimpse of heaven maybe?

zzzzzzzzz……………………

I’m really tired at the moment, I seem to be existing on 4-5 hours sleep a night and this week it has really zapped my energy. Even now as I write this I can feel my train of thought wandering. Still with the weekend here I feel a lie in may be on the cards.

Got a new dress today, well a dress I ordered last year. It took a while to get here but it was worth the wait. It’s a dress from Sissy Heaven and is delightful (I’m wearing it now). When I get the chance I will post a picture.

 Well not much to add, although I will no doubt think of something witty and clever at 4 in the morning and then forget it, so trust me it was good. Have fun everyone.

Be kind to sissies, it’s the law!! Especially tired ones…. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

The lesson

If I could, if dreams came true, then the image above would be me. A sweet little girl, no, a happy sweet little girl, no, wait….. I am a happy sweet little girl. I guess wanting to be an image is one thing, but you can wish for something so hard that you forget to understand what you already have and that’s true of most things in life. I have to stop myself sometimes and say ‘look at what you already have’. Sure go for the dream but don’t make it your life, or before you know it you’ve missed what was always there.

Here endeth the lesson

Sissy bible, chapter 12, verse 4

Have been chatting to Gina which as always is a lot of fun. She is really great and a wonderful, down to earth soul. She had some new photos which, as always were stunning. Also been chatting with Mummy Honey, who also showed me some new photos she had done… amazing. I am really blessed to know these two treasures. They both give so much. 

Large slice of humble pie for me please, along with a sprinkling of I’m not worthy.

Love ya!!!!   

 

Always a sissy

My little girl time is becoming ever more important to me. I don’t know if it’s age but I treasure every frilly second. I know one day I will be able to spend longer and longer dressed and therefore become happier and happier. It has always been a dream to spend at least 2 weeks as a little girl, with no, or as little as possible, male influences. So rather than cramming one day into a few hours I would be able to explore the little girl I am in depth and really get to know her.

As you know by now I am in love with Sissy Kiss and have notched up over 50 posts. The more I spend there and the more I spend online in general, the more I understand just how many sissies (of one form or another) there are out there. It’s a real comfort. 

I met a lovely girl called Elle just recently and she seems really nice. Also had a brief chat with a sissy baby. My baby friend Danielle is fighting my corner it seems, by getting me out there into sissy cyber space. As she says, theres no turning back now. Why would I want to, now I have come so far? I want to be a little girl more than anything so it’s time I ventured out there, because no matter what I will always be a sissy.

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Princess

The one thing that I have had all through my life is the desire to be a princess (minus the prince), it is, I would imagine, most sissies dream and one that stays firmly lodged in our hearts. When I am dressed and I look in the mirror I see a guy in a frock and that is what I am. But that is looking with my head and not my heart. If I look again, I see a sweet, pretty sissy, a little girl……… a princess.

Member Of The Day!!!

I have been busy again posting on Sissy Kiss and was suprised and elated to find I was member of the day. I cannot explain how happy that made me. It is so much fun and I am joining in with some of the threads so hopefully I will be a regular. There are so many wonderful sissies there and so many things to do.

Wore Mummy Honeys panties at work and that was very special. They are so small and cute and fit a dream. What was really special was she had worn them and they still had her scent on them which made my little bits smell like her.

I think now is a good as time as ever to mention squirties. Anyone who knows my sissy self will be familiar with the word!!! Squirties is what I do to relieve the tension in my sissy clit. I get very excited being a sissy, but I dont dress up to get a sexual kick, rather it is a by product of my sissiness. Many times I dress I dont feel the need to masturbate and am totally happy just being a little girl, other times I get very excited ‘down below’ and that is when I go squirties and I love to go squirties!!

 

This is my fantasy bedroom, somewhere I could really feel like a princess and feel at home in. I have been watching one of my Disney Princess DVDs and in the extras there was a quiz about being a princess and I got all the questions apart from one right. Watched a story about Ariel and had some sweeties Mummy Honey gave me. A really good bit of little girl time.

Stay happy everyone.

Love to you all. 

Gives us a kiss

I have been busy posting on Sissy Kiss. It is such an amazing site, I have posted a photo, a story and other things. Hopefully I will make some sissy friends and I am looking forward to contributing as much as possible.

Had a quick chat with Star today, which was nice. She was so happy I was exploring my sissiness further and happy with all my latest news.

Also had a chat with Cindy from Cindy’s Panty Paradise. I have known her a while but not really chatted in ages. She is my online ‘auntie’ and has helped me in the past with my sissiness. She knows Mummy Honey which is nice. She too was happy I was exploring my sissness further.

Baby Danielle said something so sweet about joing Sissy Kiss. She said that it was lovely that I could meet people who truly understand what it is like to be a little girl in a mans body. That was such a lovely way of putting it. She also said that it must be rough and it is sometimes. Being a sissy is about as far away as you can get from being a ‘man’ and it can be hard sometimes trying to be that ‘man’ when you know deep down you are not.

Anyway, I am a sissy and nothing can change that thank God. I would be lost if I wasn’t a sissy, lost and un-happy. So viva SISSINESS!!!

A Sissy Kiss

Another great day as a sissy. I wore panties to work and it felt so right, so natural.

I had some emails from Baby Danielle, saying she liked the blog, which was really sweet. I always like hearing from her, she is like a little sister to me. She lives in the states (I’m in the UK) but through our emails I feel a lot closer.

I have joined a site called Sissy Kiss, which is one of the very best sissy sites out there. I am littlegirl_inside if you ever check it out. It is such an important site site for sissies, with not only forums and chat rooms, but also links to hundreds of sites that are a goldmine to all sissies. I am hoping to contribute in some small way and make some sissy friends.

Wore nappies today. Yes, I know I’m not a baby, but sometimes I like the comfort and protection they bring. It is an experience only another nappy wearer can understand. I only wet them, I’m not into pooping, but it is an amazing feeling peeing your nappy, also means you never have to leave your computer for a toilet break (hee hee).

Take care everyone.