Away……

 

 

 

 

Hi everyone, just a quick post to let you all know I will be without my computer for about a week, so if you drop me an email and I don’t respond I am not ignoring you. Hopefully will be back up and running after that.

Ta ta x

Being a sissy

I hope 2009 finds everyone well and happy.

So being a sissy. Does dressing as a little girl make you a sissy?

I guess the answer to that is no. Many guys like dressing up but that doesn’t mean they are sissies. They may like sport, a drink with mates etc and then sometimes dress up. They are men in every sence of the word they just like to express another side of themselves sometimes. They may have  a sissy side, but they are not sissies. And that’s ok.

Of course many sissies like sport, going out for a drink, so why are they then sissies? I think the answer is that they are sissies in real life, whether in a little girl dress or jeans and shirt. It is something that dictates their lives, like me.

It so often comes down to being a ‘man’. You can act like a ‘man’ but if you never feel comfortable being a ‘man’ then well you are a sissy. And when I say ‘man’ I include both society’s view and what I believe it is to be a ‘man’. To be a ‘man’, function as a ‘man’, feel like a ‘man’ is something sissies find very hard, not all, I hasten to add, but many.

I don’t feel like a ‘man’, I never really have, yet I have tried all my life to be one, scared to drop the pretense for a second. And that is still true today, but I am not a ‘man’ I am a sissy, a pansy and if I could free myself from the chains that hang so heavy I would be much happier, much more contented.

I look at all things that define me, that make me a pansy, my shyness, the scared child I am inside, my inability to perform sexually, my tiny pee pee, all those desires that lurk beneath the surface and my lack of courage to be who I really am for fear of losing what I know is not good for me.

It’s funny but I was thinking the other day that I have never fantasiesd about being with a woman when I have ‘played’ with myself. (sorry for the graphic image). I don’t mean I was thinking about guys (sorry guys) but I always thought about being a girl, especially a little girl. Girls did come in to the fantasy but it always revolved around me in a dress!!

But one thing I have learnt that no matter what you define yourself as, sissy, pansy, sometimes sissy, crossdresser, transvestite, lampost, as long as you are happy that is all that matters. Labels are for those who like labels and you don’t have to be one thing or the other, it’s all about being happy as YOU!!

I haven’t been able to dress very much this year which is frustrating but nevermind, however I am still feeling very sissy. I want to explore being a baby girl oneday, just for a bit. I have never really been into it, but as you all know I love wearing and using nappies so it’s not that much of a change!!

Now who would like to change me?

I have met some lovely sissies at Sissy Kiss who are very much like me, in that they want to live fulltime as little girls and believe that, again like me, they are really little girls inside. It’s been fantastic to hear how they get on day to day with that dream etched in their hearts.

It seems there are many many adult little girls/sissies out there who want to shed the remaining essence of ‘manhood’ and become who they have always been. I know some have found ways to  do this, not fully, but as close to. I guess it may be easier to be a little girl of say 5-11, rather than a baby girl simply because the adult mind needs more activity so if you are a baby 24/7 you would, I imagine, get bored. But I imagine there are many Adult Babies out there who would disagree and quite right too.

Well that’s todays waffle over, you may all now go about your business,

Love Ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!