Coming back

Ok, so I had deceided to close this blog for a variety of reasons, but I have had a change of heart and this blog will be back in the new year.

Mummy

I have always wanted a mummy figure in my life (real life), someone to care for me and love me because I was a sissy, because I was an adult little girl. It may sound strange but I have wanted to be with someone who would wash me, dress me, even wipe my bum lol. Someone who wanted to do it, wanted to take care of me, someone who wanted the love of a sissy, who didn’t object to dirty nappies. And with that someone, I could truly be the little girl inside and give so much love.

In some ways it sounds selfish to seek someone like this, but it would still be a two way relationship, just not the typical man and woman. I often think that mummy figure would be someone who wants a little girl to never grow up, but I could be wrong, after all I dont know many women who actually want a sissy, other than to dominate one. Sorry not into that.

But I have always needed looking after, craved attention and love, just not been able to do that in a vanilla relationship. I couldnt be with someone who had to put up with the fact I was a sissy, it wouldnt be fair on them. Then theres the fact of my teenie weenie and how I cannot have a ‘normal’ sexual relationship, which I know shouldnt matter but again I couldnt be with someone and expect them to put up with it - OMG that sounds bad lol.

So for me I need a mummy, a mummy to look after me, so I can be that little girl I have always wanted to be. Any takers lol.

Another year older?

I turned 38 today, well my body did, my mind is still set at 9. It was a strange day. I don’t really get excited about birthdays (unless I am having a little girls birthday then.. Yay!) hence why I don’t really tend to advertise the fact – plus I am really bad at remembering other peoples lol. But the end of 37 came with a health scare for me and some bad news concerning my dad. My health scare came (hopefully) to nothing but unfortunatly my dad has cancer which was a bit of a shock. Hopefully, given the type, it is curable, but as you can imagine, my birthday, more than ever did not really feel like a celebration.

But I have to say I was touched by some un-expected e-cards and even a present. So thankyou, meant a lot. I guess I am full of mixed emotions at the moment, trying to be positive about everything. One thing I really have to do is get fit, it’s gone past a mere case of looking healthy, to actually feeling healthy, which I am sure may give me added confidence. I am also going to really try and do other things to maybe turn my life around, I really dont want to be where I am at 40 – ahhhh 40, nope I have said it now – 40, 40, 40! No I mean 9 lol.

 

Now I know many of you are aware of Mistress Julia, well she has re-vamped her website and it is amazing. Also if you go to her sissy page, she has written just the nicest things about me, I blushed. Thankyou Mistress Julia, I am truly touched.

Check out her site here – http://yourmistressjulia.moonfruit.com/

I’m a little girl.. yay!

I am a little girl!!!

I have been having so much little girl time and it has been simply the best!! I just love being a little girl so much and it has been a wonderous experience to shed that pretend man I have to be and just feel so free. For every bad moment in my life, these are the precious moments I live for and it is means a lot to be able to share them with you.

This a little pic of me in my fairy costume. I had a lot of fun being a fairy princess I can tell you!!

x x x

Dreams and friends

I have met some more wonderful people, people who are kind and thoughtful. I am always touched when people take an interest in me. I have to mention Hazel, an amazing woman, who means a lot to me. She has been so sweet and kind. I also cannot forget my dear ’sis’ Mary who is always there for me. To all those I have met, I love you all.

My ‘urge’ to live fulltime as a little girl is still very strong, I am finding it more and more difficult to be an ‘adult man’. I crave an existance where I can let grown up responsibilites fade away and feel safe. I just want to live as a little girl and be happy……… OMG I sound so selfish lol.

Just as I was doing this post I saw a comment come through from a Baby Peter who liked the pictures and wondered if I could add some baby ones so here goes………………….

Mrs Loving

I want to share a site with you – Mrs Lovings Sissy Feminization it is amazing. It is a membership site with lots of videos of sissies being dressed and trained, by loving and understanding women. It is well worth a looky and will def make you jealous of the sissies on there!!

The sissy male

Sorry for not posting much over the last few months, I have found it difficult to think of what to write. However…………..

I have been thinking about why I am a sissy lately, nothing deep, just random thoughts. When you are a guy who dresses as a little girl, these thoughts happen lol. In everyday life, work, walking down the street I am aware I am a sissy, it’s not like I am a guy who just wears little girl clothes, but a guy who is a sissy. It’s the things I do, things that happen, whilst not dressed that remind me I am a sissy. I’m not camp or anything, far from it to be honest, but under that guy exterior, I am shy, timid and well let’s face it… a pansy.

As in previous posts my body betrays my sissiness, well a part of it anyway.. yes a small part hee hee. Having a teenie weenie has defined me as a sissy. I know that not all men with tiny ones are sissies, far from it, but for me it is part of my sissiness. Even if I gave all it all up, never wore so much as a pink ribbon, I would still be a sissy, still have a teenie weenie, still be frightened of sex, still be timid. So I guess little girl clothes are the right choice.

And in this mixed up, crazy world of ours, where life is fragile and happiness a piece of hay in a huge stack of needles, I truly find comfort in the fact I am an adult little girl. I never would have dreamt, as a kid, I would ever have the chance to dress as a little girl, have my own dolls and just be a princess… so for that I am grateful.

Love ya x x x

Frills and a slight whiff

Today has been just dreamy, I have been dressed all day and it has been heaven. I smell pretty, well most of me does lol… I’m in nappies and they have got a little stinky, but you know me, I hate having to get out of my nappies. But today has been all about being that little girl I yearn to be, letting her have fun and it has been wonderful, the time just flew by. I had a lovely chat today with my big sis Mary, she is just wonderful. Hey sis! Hope I didn’t go on to much about teenie weenie’s lol.

For those of you who follow this blog, you may have noticed that Mummy Honeys page has gone. Many of you have also noticed her blog/site has gone too, which is really sad. I don’t know why it has gone, the last time I heard from her she was well but really busy in the ‘real’ world. I was touched that so many of you were concerned for her, I know how much you all love her, as I do. I miss her so much, I owe her so much too, she did so much for me and I hope she is happy. As she is no longer my mummy, although I will always think of her that way, I thought it best to take off the page and of course she will always be my friend. There is a permanent place etched in my heart for her.

I want to just say BIG HUGS to all the special people who have touched my life and left it brighter. I hope you are all well and happy, take care and stay safe.

Love to you all x x x

The little girl inside

I am enjoying some little girl time, it’s such a relief to get out of my mens clothes and into a pretty dress. I have also got some nappies and that has been wonderful. I am trying to dress as often as I can, my desires and needs havent changed, adult life pretty much sucks, little girl life pretty much rules. I still love being a sissy and I always will.

Mummy P

I have a new mummy! Mummy P. Money Honey is still around, but cannot be around a lot, so I have a new mummy to take care of me. Mummy Sophie has been looking after me for a while and she is and always be a mummy for to me and a very good friend, but out of the blue came Mummy P and she too is amazing. We met online and really clicked. I think we are going to have a really strong, loving mummy/little girl relationship.

It has always been so important to me to have someone to look after me and I have been very lucky in meeting people who want to take me under their wings. I will update you all on how we get on.